Lonesome... part II

I don't think lonesome is the right word for what I was feeling yesterday. More out of sorts. today I am just feeling like I need to be creative....  I am working on a quilt for my best friend's new great-grand daughter who is due soon. I can't wait to meet her. So exciting.
 I need to finish several projects....and pay bills....and wash dishes..... and go to bed early as per my Dr's orders. I need to get enough sleep. Off to create something!

sometimes I'm so lonesome

At this time of year I am always sorta sad. Winter seems so dreary to me. I love the cold (when we get cold as we have today), a little snow (like we had last week) and the toasty bed when it is time for sleep. I DON’T love the dreary, no sun, cold, snow and short days. As usual this time of year, I get lonesome. I miss my family that is waiting for me in heaven, I miss our pets that have crossed the rainbow bridge, and I miss the long days and warm weather.

I am so very blessed that there is really no reason for me to be sad or lonesome. I have a wonderful husband… Mr. S is so very good to me. Even when he gets on my nerves. Katie is a great daughter. She is doing very well and will graduate soon with her PhD. She already has a job she likes and is happy. She has even brought a nice guy into our lives. . . . . . And a grand-kitten. J

the light of our lives
our lovely daughter

It occurred to me today that I am middle-aged! Big surprise I know. I am just amazed that my life is more over than is left; my mom has been gone longer than I was with her here on earth, my big brother lives in another state and I don’t see him as often as I want to.

My Brother at age 18

Mother

grandfather Jackson

me and my brother-Nashville

my dad and his sister when they were in
their 80's

grandmother Jackson



grandparents May with my momma as a baby



Mr S' parents..... great parents and examples

Mr S. as a little guy

 

I have so many things I want to do… travel…make countless quilts (maybe for a someday grandchild)… make scrapbooks…. Read all the books that interest me… love on my kid ….and my hubby….and my dog. …. Be happy in the sun…be happy in the winter… share the great old photos we recently found with my cousins…. See my family happy and in a good place… ride a horse… raise some chickens… travel…. Go with my love to Alaska…go on an ocean cruise….write a book………..so many things I want to do.



me and Mr S--age 18 and 22

wednesday 6/22/11

new favorite song--anyone whom has loved and lost will understand this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4fqPcnuVPR8

I have really like Rascal Flatts for a long time, the lead singer, Gary LeVox, is great.  Please watch and remember those special people in our lives

01/11/11 Tuesday

I am not doing project 365 this year--didnt finish it last year I ended up with project 185.5. but I really did enjoy it. but I will be posting some photos occasionally.

I took this one in the last summer. I had to go to the Post Office--not something I do often. While there I was struck by the old post office boxes still in use. They are pretty cool

9/21/10 Tuesday

Card making on Tuesday--

first for my friend Jennifer- she has been absent for work for many days recently. One week ago she had a surgical procedure to hopefully make the pain leave... The concept for her card was a donkey (which she has a affinity for) and the place her surgery was --ummmm her posterior

that is the outside of the card. (this guy is on my drive home)

The inside says "It's about time you got your "ASS" back to work"

Second card for my brother's son and daughter in law. Her grandmother passed away this week.

the outside of the card

which is one of the lillies that bloomed in my pond this summer.

I haven't decided what to put on the inside. I may just put a simple "I'm sorry for your loss"

9/19/10 Sunday

finally getting around to posting one of the last creative things i have done. I made this T-shirt Quilt for Katie for Christmas. I didn't have time to quilt it so i tacked it with pink embroidery floss The back is just a simple 9 patch pattern with the left over material from the letters on her shirts. the t-shirts were ones she had when she was first in her sorority- ZTA.

9/8/10 Wednesday

OK-- i am a reader and learning to write. Sometimes I think I over analyze everything..but it really is not a problem because maybe two people read this--- on a good month---and because I don't blog regularly--because nothing much exciting ever happens......
anyway--- look at this http:/thepioneerwoman.com/confessions/ for today's date... I love the PW (Ree). She manages so well..... I want to live on a farm (but I would have to be a vegetarian--just saying I'm squeamish) and have a Charlie in my life (my Father in law Charlie) does not count. I do have a Mo and Maggie who are blessings though.

9/6/10 Monday

Memories of summer childhood...... I bought some red plums at the grocery store today. When I bit into one this afternoon it took me right back to when i was a small child. One of the first things i remember getting in trouble for. I must have been younger than 5 when this occurred. I remember our landlady Mrs Mixon. We rented a lot for our trailer. It was just a little bitty place (probably way less than a regular lot in urban America) and we lived on the very last of the lots. There were 5 or 4 trailers parked in this small place. Mrs Mixon had the "big house" beside the parking place for the trailers. It was a two story blue house ---probably not all that large but back then it seemed huge...but i digress. Back to the red plums...Mrs Mixon had a red plum tree or two planted right near our home. When the red plums ripened and fell to the ground it was just toooo much -- I had to have those plums. I guess a child i was more deprived than i really realized. Those PLUMS became the thing i had to have. I remember mother telling me not to eat Mrs Mixon's plums... as a little child i probably didn't eat all that many of them but "mean Mrs Mixon" made sure that i didn't get any at all. It is funny how just the taste of a red plum brought all that back........

9/5/10 Sunday

Mo-now the eldest of our furbabes at age 11- has discovered there are fish in the pond. He is intent on trying to catch one of them. He loves to go out at night with Mr S and his flashlight and see if he can find the irksome little things. He has trouble finding them while looking among all the lillies and the pond lettuce

09/02/10 Thursday

Sad--Sad--Sad--- there is so much sadness around me.. I feel so terribly sad for my friends. I am like a rayon dress in the middle of winter stuck to your legs with static cling. My friends grief and sadness clings to me. I wish I had a magic compound to help them feel better.

Please say a prayer for my dear friends

• Tina-- she is alone this weekend, her job is getting her down . She is still grief stricken from her daughter's death and the physical consequences of her major surgery just before . She is... Broken. I think she has taken all she can take. Her faith is strong--I just don't know how she can go on. Tears.
  
• Sharon--just newly married and should be sooooo happy. Her medical conditions make her life so hard . Her children take advantage of her situation (in the past). Job stress and the need to continue to work. She has a great faith--she trusts in God and still the physical and mental aspects of her disease process is getting to her.


• Maggie-- job woes, grown up children and a husband. Her son nearly died in a swimming accident last fall and I know that still haunts her. She is also dealing with the other three friends that are in need of prayer. Maggie and I are both friends with each of the other.It is so difficult to watch friends fall apart and not be able to do anything to help them in their suffering.


• Gary--my sweet ,sweet friend. His struggles are of a lost relationship and lost love. He also has physical problems resulting from a freakish accident last Christmas, and new diagnosis of a chronic illness. He now has so much financial responsibility and is not able to work due to both physical and mental wounds. He is struggling also with physical, mental and financial aspects of his new life.

My dear,dear friends--and I--are "standing in the need of prayer" (that is a song). I am listening to many hours of praise and worship songs every day. Now that my job is changed I have more time to plug into the iPod and try to remember the power of prayers and love