Monday, Monday

....do you remember that song by the Mama's and the Papa's? I don't remember them from when they were first around but i do like the music--- i was just a kid in the 60's but I imagine it must have been something to be a teen during that time- - - - exciting, terrifying, changing and scary. Not only was the whole hippy,free love, drugs and rock and roll thing going on but also the Vietnam war (conflict??? from what i remember looked like a war to me)-- the draft, the cold war, the recent assignation of a loved president, corruption. EVERYTHING was changing.
Somehow doesn't seem all that different to me now with all the changes going on in our world right now--- it is different from the 60's but a changin it is--- like it or not. We still have a war (conflict-- funny---still looks like a war to me). Seems we still have the "free love" too--- the morals of people are so changed from when i was growing up-- unfortunately we still have the drugs. although I'm not sure the music that is prevalent nowadays can be counted as rock and roll though. We may not still have the cold war and the Berlin wall but we are still "cut off" from a lot of the world, we still have the corruption, not the draft but still loosing some of our best and brightest in a war. Guess that old saying is true--- the more things change the more they stay the same.

Our Daughter came home this weekend and brought her new beau. he seems like a nice young man. he is older and more established. I think K was worried about bringing him home---although we live in a nice enough house it is not a mansion. nor is it a dump. I think she is a little ashamed of our house or something-- she seems to have avoided bringing him home as long as she could---- but i digress. She is all excited about graduation and starting grad school and a new part of her life. She ordered her graduation announcements last night.....sigh

well i guess that is enough observations for now-- LOL going to go read what everyone else has to say before my lunch time is over and i have to go back to work

faeiry search...

'm on a search for the “perfect” faeiry. I want a smallish, dainty faeiry with pointed ears and feet that have the little curls on the toes. I see her in a dress that is ethereal and gossamer. She must have a halo of flowers in her hair. I look every once in a while at the we-sites that have pictures of the fae and Google “fairy” images (be careful if you do this because you can get some really scary sights ).
Katie thinks I'm too old to be getting another tat—but heck I was 45 when I got Eeyore! Furthermore she things that a faeiry is very passe. But if you didn't know Fae is my middle name and what better thing could I have on my body? It will someday give the nurse's in the nursing home something to talk about---- old lady with tattoos. LOL but at least mine is on a place that is not gonna sag or bag too much(my ankle) . If I can find the faeiry I am looking for she will go on my foot or my other ankle or maybe the other side of the ankle that is already tattooed. Mine is in a place I can always cover up if I want to.
I've scrapped today—so it is a good day. Three pretty simple LO's done for Katie's album. I do like the way they look. I need to take a picture of them and figure out how to post them here. I made some ATC's out of polymer clay—but found they were too fragile to be mailable. Roni has posted a couple of them on her site Ink Stains if you would like to see them. I hope to take a couple of pictures of them and post them here. I put the ones I kept in a picture frame and covered them with 3-d lacquer since they are so fragile.(that was Roni's idea—thanks Roni!!)
I wish for you the best my friends—stay safe and healthy and love the ones you're with

Sometimes.......

ife is too confusing... just last week the Rheumatologist said 'I don't think you have Scleroderma...blah blah blah...” and drew some labs.
Today I get the test results this is all it says “ANA (antinuclear antibody) Positive Screen Other Test: Scleroderma antibody is still positive (3.3){ which is more than it was before} Comments I believe some type of autoimmune disease may be evolving---It is not “differentiated” so that we could be specific-- Connective Tissue Disease”

that's it—-that's all it says-- Nada-- nil--- now my question is “ what the heck does that mean exactaly”

I am soooo black and white-- need to know a answer---i can not deal with the not knowing what is wrong with me.........I don't know whether to be happy or sad or mad or what the heck

so it looks like I am right back to where I was. And I was just getting back to a hopeful me....sigh

and to think this was to be a happy blog and a place to show you my creativity—turns out it has been anything but...........